For me...

I never ask for much... but what I DO want is the best for me... and that is why  have decided that I need to take a solo vacation... I decided that I am going to Savannah, GA for 6 days (December 14 - 20th)... I need sometime to do what I want to do... rest... sight see... explore... and regain a bit of the woman I was born to be...

This Texas living has caused SO MUCH depression that I need to get out of here and be a little HAPPY... if even for just a moment. I chose Savannah... 'cause well... I have always wanted to live there - so thought - hey probably should go visit it... I think this will be a rejuvenating trip for me... I never get this opportunity - so I am GOING TO take it.

I do have my concerns though... I am worried about Richard and the children... With his recent PTSD episode it concerns me that he will become flustered too easily while I am gone... But I need to keep in mind that he NEEDS to have responsibility and motivation to do things during the day... The children will be in school that week... then out Christmas Break starting that Friday afternoon... AndDevlin will stay going to school... So really just the weekend is the issue... But he can take them to the gym for a 2-hour break each day if need be...

Am I being selfish... it feels like it... and I do NOT like it.. NOT one bit... It is making my tummy sick... I keep trying to convice myself that this will be good for me AND the family... They will have Mama come home HAPPY and RESTED!!! I think over these past couple of years I have become SO burnt out with school and everything - I need a refresher...

This will be good for me... and I know I will enjoy myself... I just need to believe that...

Bucket List

Attend a Hawaiian Luau

Attend Mardi Gras

Attend Mass by the Pope

Attend the Renaissance Festival

Attend the Vienna Philharmonic

Be in Times Square for New Year’s

Capture lightning in a photo

Climb the stairs of the Washington Monument

Color 1 whole coloring book                        - STarted 1/6-2011

Crush grapes in a vineyard w/my feet

Eat at a 5 star restaurant

Feel the emotion in the changing of the guard at the Tomb of the Unknown Soldier

Fly first class

Fly in a jet fighter

Get a Master’s Degree – Complete by June 2015

Go ice skating in Rockefeller Center

Go on a cruise

Go on a ghost hunting investigation

Go on a vacation by myself – Complete by 12/20/2010

Go Parasailing Go skeet shooting

Go target shooting

Go the Guggenheim Museum

Go to a vineyard

Go to an international sporting event

Go to an opera

Go to Graceland

Go to the top of the Empire States Building and look down

Go white water rafting

Go zip-lining

Go zorbing

Have a star named after me

Help build a house for Habitat for Humanity

Indoor skydive

Learn sign language

Learn Slovenian

Learn to belly dance

Learn to ice skate

Learn to ski/snowboard

Lose 120 pounds - Be a healthy weight

Organize all my photos

Project 365                       - Started 01/01/11

Pull taffy

Ride a Gondola IN Venice

Ride a horse on the beach

Ride a motorcycle (passenger)

Run a marathon

Save change for a year                   - started 12/30/10

See a musical on Broadway

See the Northern Lights

See the Vietnam War Memorial Wall

Send a message in a bottle

Stand under a waterfall

Start a blog                                - completed 11/02/10

Swim w/dolphins

Take a ballroom dancing class

Take a photography class

Throw a dart at a map and go there

Tour Alcatraz

Tour Hearst Castle

Tour the Biltmore Estate

Visit a Nazi Concentration Camp

Visit all 50 states – 17/50 done

Visit Ellis Island

Visit Gettysburg

Visit Iwo Jima

Visit Niagara Falls

Visit Slovenia

Visit the Amazon Rainforest

Visit the Amish in PA

Visit the Carlsbad Caverns in NM

Visit the Grand Ole Opry

Visit the Illinois Holocaust Museum

Visit the Lincoln Memorial

Visit the Munster Mansion in Waxahachie, TX

Visit the Sistine Chapel

Visit the USS Arizona in Hawaii

Wad in a cranberry bog

Watch the 10 greatest movies of all time

Watch the launch of a space shuttle

Write a letter to my future self

Write a letter to the people who made a difference to me